Selamat Pengantin Baru Elias & Aan

Namiri Return

i'm coming back to puchong. i have a lot to do and a lot of persons to meet.

sigh.....

by the way, i want to suggest everyone to go watch ZOHAN and 4BIA. i think that 4BIA is the best horror movie i have seen. i thought there will be snakes... spiders... rats but it turn out to be 4 short movies about our phobia to ghosts!!!!! 

go... watch it now!!! 

Melayu kah???

terlebih dahulu saya nak minta maaf sebab menggunakan bahasa melayu dalam posting ini.

sekarang ni, isu isu tentang melayu banyak diperkatakan. umno dan pas nak bergabung untuk melayu, uitm nak dibuka untuk bukan melayu, majlis peguam pertikai hak melayu dan banyak lagi. secara automatik, berduyun-duyun orang melayu berdemonstrasi, menghantar petisyen untuk mengecamnya. mereka kata, melayu sudah lama bersabar.... jangan dijolok sarang lebah (jangan cabar melayu). saya memang akui yang melayu ni amat terkenal dengan sikap pemarahnya.... tapi selalunya tak bertempat. 

keluarga saya (pro kerajaan) memang sudah maklum yang saya lebih cenderung kepada pembangkang... jadi apabila timbul isu-isu ini, mereka akan jadikan ia modal untuk menghentam saya. saya menghormati mereka kerana mereka sudah berpengalaman tapi kadangkala apa yang mereka luahkan saya tak dapat terima. 

saya dapat tahu yang kebanyakkan cikgu melayu akan cuba sebaik-baiknya untuk menolong pelajar melayu. kalau lagi sikit nak lulus... mereka akan tambah markah. mungkin untuk bukan melayu pun mereka bagi juga. tapi cikgu bukan melayu tidak akan mengubah markah walaupun lagi sikit pun. yang menjadi mangsa ialah cikgu bukan melayu... mereka dituduh tidak berperikemanusian, kejam dan tidak mahu tolong pelajar melayu. yang patut dimarah ialah pelajar itu sendiri... siapa suruh malas nak belajar sampai tak lulus... kalau nak dapat A belajar la betul-betul. hak pelajar itu ialah untuk dapat markah yang dia berhak... tidak lebih dan tidak kurang.

satu lagi yang saya dengar kebanyakkan sijil berhenti sekolah sekarang ni dah tak boleh pakai. cikgu-cikgu sekarang dengan senangnya akan memperakui yang pelajar aktif dalam pelbagai kegiatan kokurikulum. ini semata-mata dibuat supaya pelajar akan mendapat markah yang banyak ketika mengisi borang UPU. tidakkah kita pelik kerana dalam data UPU menunjukkan banyak pelajar aktif dalam kokurikulum sedangkan kita tahu banyak pelajar menghabiskan masa dengan internet, main game, pergi tusyen dan duduk dirumah. tak hairanlah waktu saya di universiti dulu... dalam sijil kata wakil sekolah dalam debate... tapi suruh buat presentation depan kuliah... berterabur. dalam sijil kata ahli kadet tentera sekolah... suruh kawat tak tahu. apa yang cikgu-cikgu itu buat sebenarnya ialah tidak menolong sesiapa.

isu uitm pula.... siapa khalid ibrahim tu? dia berhak ke nak tukar dasar-dasar uitm? dia hanyalah menteri besar selangor... tak berhak nak tukar dasar-dasar uitm. dia hanya memberi cadangan... terpulangla pada pihak-pihak yang berhak keatas dasar-dasar uitm membincangkannya. kenapa nak marah-marah? kenapa tak marah apabila uitm tak tersenarai dalam 200 ranking terbaik? kenapa tak marah apabila banyak graduan uitm menganggur? saya dengar uitm la saja tinggal untuk melayu.... unversiti MIC di sungai petani tu walaupun dibuka untuk melayu tapi ramai melayu yang masuk tak tahan. banyak yang dah keluar. saya tidak pasti sama ada pelajar ini diberhentikan atau keluar dengan rela. universiti lain pun sama saja. saya tak pernah dengar pelajar bukan melayu diberhentikan kerana gagal peperiksaan... semua melayu saja. jadi apa bezanya? jangan marahkan universiti... marah la pelajar-pelajar yang kena buang tu. pelajar lain ok je belajar sampai habis....cuba fikir kalau universiti al-azhar di mesir cakap hanya pelajar arab yang beragama islam saja yang boleh jadi pelajarnya??

saya dari kecil memang rapat dengan bukan melayu. dari sekolah rendah sampai sekolah menengah memang rapat. dekat universiti pun saya ada banyak kenalan bukan melayu. di tempat kerja saya sekarang... 50% india, 25% melayu, 20% cina dan 5% orang putih dan lain-lain. banyak orang kata, orang bukan melayu rapat dengan orang melayu kalau ada kepentingan sahaja. bila dah tak ada kepentingan, mereka tidak akan kisah kepada kita. memanglah!!! lumrah alam... dah tak berguna buat apa simpan? memanglah habis madu sepah dibuang.... sepah tu nak buat apa? kalau kaum melayu sentiasa memperkasakan diri masing-masing... tentu orang bukan melayu akan sentiasa bekerja sama dengan orang melayu. jangan marah mereka... cermin diri sendiri.

dalam kad pengenalan saya... saya bangsa melayu. ayah saya seorang pengkaji sejarah. dia telah membuat kajian salahsilah keluarga saya. dia dapati asal usul keluarga saya berasal dari india. ini bermakna moyang saya berketurunan india. bagaimana saya boleh menjadi melayu?

kalau saya boleh menjadi melayu... kenapa rakan-rakan saya yang berlainan bangsa tidak mendapat hak yang sama dengan saya?

oleh itu, saya ingin cadangkan dasar-dasar kerajaan dan pelembagaan dikaji semula agar lebih relevan dengan keadaan semasa. yang saya tahu, hanya islam sahaja yang relevan sepanjang masa. inikan pula dasar dan pelembagaan yang dicipta oleh manusia...

saya minta maaf jika apa yang saya tulis ini menyinggung mana-mana pihak. jika ada perkara yang tidak betul... sila betulkan.

From Kuching...... so tired....

i visited my sister in kuching last week, from 29 of july to 2nd of august. the first thing i notice about kuching is how many spaces they have. i mean that things are so peaceful and quiet it is over there. houses and buildings are apart from each other and and so many greens and gardens around them. i also noticed that the seafood over there are so cheap. i end up buying 5 kilos of “udang galah” just for rm90.00 and have them for a barbeque.

luckily for me, on the 1st to the 3rd of august, there was a regatta event at kuching's riverfront. they also have fireworks display and street party at night. i even spend a lot buying souvenirs for my friends and family. my trip to kuching is so full of activities that i end up being so tired.

i will definitely going to visit kuching again. 

the kuching statue

the barbeque “udang galah”

the “astana”

the regatta race

the fireworks display

my cute little fairies

selling “sate” the old fashion way 

group from uitm kota samarahan participating in the street party

another group with a colourful costume

me shop till me drop.....

Super Cute

these are my nieces and nephews. who is the cutest??

farisya sofea (mohd farish and hanim)

aleeya izzati (ezatul syima and mohd hasni)

faiz hakimi (mohd farish and hanim)

adam harris (ezatul syima and muhd hasni)

amir danish (nurlisa and mohd najib)

I'm Sorry

i never been a fan of akon as i find his voice is too unique for me. but i like this song a lot as i can see myself in it. my pet sister used to scold me a lot because i always say “i'm sorry..” we are not perfect, so it is better to say sorry. 

why can we follow this? is it too hard? do not listen to “sorry seems to be the hardest word” by elton john.

listen to this... 

"sorry, blame it on me"

as life goes on i’m starting to learn more and more about responsibility

i realize everything i do is affecting the people around me

so i want to take this time out to apologize for things i have done

and things that have not occurred yet

and the things they don’t want to take responsibility for

i’m sorry for the times i left you home

i was on the road and you were alone

i’m sorry for the times that i had to go

i’m sorry for the fact that i did not know

that you were sitting home just wishing we

could go back to when it was just you and me

i’m sorry for the times i would neglect

i’m sorry for the times i disrespect

i’m sorry for the wrong things that i’ve done

i’m sorry i’m not always there for my son

i’m sorry for the fact that i'm not aware

that you can’t sleep at night when i am not there

because i am in the streets like everyday

sorry for the things that i did not say

like how you are the best thing in my world

and how i'm so proud to call you my girl

[bridge]

i understand that there are some problems

and i am not too blind to know

all the pain you kept inside you

even though you might not show

if i can apologize for being wrong

then it’s just a shame on me

i’ll be the reason for your pain and you can put the blame on me

[chorus]

you can put the blame on me [4x]

said you can put the blame on me [3x]

you can put the blame on me

sorry for the things that he put you through

and all the times you didn’t know what to do

sorry that you had to go and sell those packs

just trying to stay busy till you heard from dad

and you would rather be home with all your kids

as one big family with love and bliss

and even though pops treated us like kings

he got a second wife and you didn’t agree

he got up and left you there all alone

i’m sorry that you had to do it on your own

i’m sorry that i went and added to your grief

i’m sorry that your son was once a thief

i’m sorry that i grew up way too fast

i wish i would’ve listened and not be so bad

i’m sorry your life turned out this way

i’m sorry that the feds came and took me away

[bridge]

[chorus]

i’m sorry that it took so long to see

they were dead wrong trying to put it on me

i’m sorry that it took so long to speak

but i was on tour with gwen stefani

i’m sorry for the hand that she was dealt

for the embarrassment that she felt

just a little young girl trying to have fun

her daddy should never let her out that young

i’m sorry for club zen getting shut down

i hope they manage better next time around

how was i to know she was underage

in a 21 and older club they say

why doesn’t anybody wanna take blame

verizon backed out disgracing my name

i’m just a singer trying to entertain

because i love my fans i’ll take that blame

even though the blame’s on you [3x]

i’ll take that blame from you

and you can put that blame on me [2x]

you can put that blame on me

and you can put that blame on me

Sorry Blame It On Me Video

My New Camera

i like to take picture. since i was small, i always be the one who is holding the camera so i do have a lot of photos of me inside and this made me familiar with a camera and its functions.

i am not in professional photography. i like to take photos minus the hassle of manual functions. for me, i need a camera with big zooms, good flash and it must be huge. i do not like small and tiny camera as i am a big person. i always been a fan of nikon's and canon's camera. but i am more impressed to canon's digital cameras then nikon's digital cameras. i believed that canon's powershot cameras is the best digital camera in the world. the colour are real, easy to use, big and have a strong body. another thing, my camera should never use the rechargeable battery bundled with the camera. i always want it to us the normal aa batteries so i can just go to any shop to buy it when it dry up.

however, i never have my own camera until i was 27 years old. i always uses my mom's camera since she rarely use it. for my 27 years old birthday, i bought myself a camera. heheh... a canon powershot S5 IS ...

i still not good in taking pictures... below are some pictures taken using the camera;

what do you think of the pictures?

Candle In The Wind

actually, i was about to write something else when i heard that Dato' Paduka Ahmad Basri Akil pass away yesterday afternoon. he was my idol in the sport arena as i know him (not personally) since i was 12 years old. he was the backbone of the kedah's state football team and has been very passionate to develop our national team. although he was banned from football a few years ago, he still maintained his efforts. 

he should be the model for the younger generations. we should not be afraid to defend our opinions if we believe it is true and if we know it is for a good cause. 

lets offer our prayer to the true MALAYSIAN; Allahyarham Dato' Paduka Ahmad Basri Akil.

al-fatihah...  

Feeling The Blues

I do not know why my new post did not have the comment's link.

Hospitalised

i tore a bit of my knee ligament 4 years ago while practicing for a dance performance for my department. a few months later, i fell down during a futsal game and my doctor confirmed that my ligament was completely rupture. since i am not a spotman, he suggested that i just excersize and undergo a minor surgary to make my knee more stable. it will not reconstruc my ruptured ligament but it will make the pain goes away.

just about 3 months ago, my knee gave away while i am entering my car. i was hospitalised for 4 days at sjmc. my doctor said that my knee is getting worse and advised my to undergo a major operation to reconstruc my ligament. since i need to rest at home for about 6 months after the operation, i have decided to do it in kedah. luckily the operation went well and i am on the 7 weeks after the operation. i am going for phisio sessions twice a week to speed my recovery.  

i have nothing to do at home other than watching tv and eat. after euro 2008 was over, i feel bored and do not know what to do. so i have decided to learn about blogging and have my on blog.

About Me

first of all i want to appologise for the my ealier post. i do not mean that writing a blog about your life is not good. i do enjoy reading them. some people they express themselves better in writing. so a blog make me know that particular person better. in summary, each of us have the right to do whatever they whan to do i their blog. it is a free world out there.

back to me...

i was born on 21 february 1981 in butterworth, penang. my dad worked for ramf as a fighter pilot and my mom is a teacher (teaching math and scince). after a while, my mom delivered my younger sister. then, i believed that in 1984, my dad was transferred to kuantan. sadly, in 1985, my dad was killed in jet crash while performing for the birthday of pahang's king. since my mom's parent is living in sungai petani, kedah, we moved there to be closed with them.

my first school is ibrahim primary school and i studied there for 6 years. after that, i was accepted to continue my studies at ibrahim secondary school. i studied there until i finished my fom 5. when i was 12 years old, my mom married a teacher who already have 3 childrens. from the marriage, i was blessed by another younger brother. so in summary, i have 1 older sister, 1 older brother, 1 younger sister and 2 younger brothers. a real big happy family.

after form 5, i was accepted to last batch of matriculation in usm, penang. i did very very bad. i always been the good student in school, but campus life make me became too lazy to study and too lazy to attend any classes. i was busy with playing cards and spent most of my time in cyber cafes playing online games. i have only 4 subjects, i only managed to get c for english, f for math, f for chemistry and f for phisic. luckily they allowed me to redo the papers and i managed to get c for chemistry and d for phisic. i still failed m math. at the end, my accumulated marks still pass the minimum requirement to be enrolled to the bachelor's programe. i have been accepted to further my study in bachelor of management in usm. fuh... i still did not learn anything from the past and did not do well in the early years. my exam results are bad. luckly, i realized managed to gratuate although i have to extend for a year to repeat a few papers. my final gpa is 2.25 only.

i did not have to wait long to get a work. before my convorcation, i was accepted by hsbc electronic data processing (hdpm) in cyberjaya to work as a global support executive. basically, hdpm is a hsbc group entity to managed the group's operations. they have been migrating their operation from countries like uk, hong kong and us to countries like india, china and malaysia to lower the cost of operating it in the original country. their operations covers call centers and data entry. as i did not have a good voice capability, i was placed in a data entry department doing account maintaince.

from the first day of work, i promised myself not to be lazy anymore and to be the most hardworking people in the company. after a very hard 3 years, i have been succesfully promoted to assistant manager operations. this month is my first year anniversary of being promoted and honestly, i am not very pleased with myself as there a lot of things i think that i could have done better.

i am 27 years old now and have moved to puchong, selangor when i started my work. my family is still in kedah and i am here all alone. sometime i feel it is better to be alone but i admid that there are times when i wished that i can have my family by my side. so by writing this blog, i can express myself, share my sadness and more important to share my happiness with everyone. 

i am on he quest to fill the voids in my strange life, spritually and materially.

A Virgin Blogger

hi world!!!

i cannot stop from admitting that blogs are getting more attention now. my first time with the blog world would be back in 2003. i have a pet sister who was taking a computer major and she have her own blog. at first, i thought that the blog is a story of a person's life made public (because her posts was about her friends, her trips, photos of her life and her growing up). this sound more like a diary to me. come on, have you ever know a dude keeping a diary? a real dude? i always believe that jotting down every single thing happen in my life would be very time consuming. i might share the moments with my friends but make it public is very hard for me to swallow.

however, recently she managed to write differently and i find it very interesting. she begins to give her thoughts and views on any current events. her blog is no longer her diary, it has evolved to a medium where she can exercise her freedom to express herself. later, i get to know that there are a lot of bloggers do not use their blog to write anything about their personal life.

my reason for setting this blog are express myself personally and to have a say on anything happening around me and the world. i just want to write what i think. i do not care whether it is right or wrong. everyone are free to correct me. it is better to have someone correcting you than assuming that you are right.

i am not the best in writing in english but i am sure that i am not the worst. at least i am trying to practice my english. i hope that everyone will enjoy reading my blog.

A journey of my strange life...